Going down that wrong road again is trying with a will to live an error-free life...a sin-free life. No matter how pretty we dress up a self-determined objective, it is still a self-determined objective.
Our heart is in the right place...it cannot not be in the right place for it is a hidey-hole of God. It is our mind...our egoic mind...that ever speaks louder, deals from the bottom of the deck, leads for self alone.
The harder lesson comes with the need to change our mind. For now we find that doing it wrong is doing it right..."right" is our road to Golgotha, the way toward the crucifixion of self-will.
As is written by so many spiritual seekers, we will fail, we will act contrary to our own spiritual being, we will "show our bum in public"... again and yet again. It seems we need to be egoically wrong to get spiritually right.
Going down that wrong road again? Aha! Heading in the right direction. Away from self-will toward God's will...whether we know it or not.
John of the Cross illumines the transformational power of radical unknowing. He reminds us that when everything in us wants to rush out and fix the problem of our brokenness, both individual and collective, the wisest and most loving thing to do is to be still, letting go of our attachment to the way we thought the spiritual life was supposed to feel and the sense we assumed it should make. -- Fr Richard Rohr, Daily Meditation, August 18, 2022
Thank you.
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