CLOSE ENOUGH...MY SPIRITUAL DIRECTIVE

To have but one goal, still more spiritual growth, is a life lesson in itself. Paring down my many goals, I discover most to be merely wants. I realize again, as I wrote long ago, There is no ego gold in spiritual growth. Like charity, spiritual growth is its own reward.

I'm thinking that spiritual growth cannot be an achievable intellectual goal...we can want it, seek it, of course...but we grow spiritually whether we want to or not. We can make a decision to seek still more spiritual growth...then read, study, practice living Goldsmith's words, Rohr's ideas, Easwaran's directions, but until we realize our own...until from within we know, and we know we know...we're just a walking around library for another's spiritual history lessons.

We must needs make it our own...oh wait. No. We must needs be made Its own. Transformed, in a word. That cannot be done by our efforts, want as we will. 

I am still wanting to know, to feel, to experience, to fully realize the love of God within me. 

I accept that I am in the pipeline. I am being processed. In the crucible. I take comfort knowing that, but transformed? Not yet. I may have many more lifetimes to live before I realize I have ever been Its own...which is what transformed means to me. Today, knowing I am being led in the right direction is close enough to perfect for me.

Close enough is my spiritual directive...it stops the ego-gold perfect in its ego-dung tracks. 

Thank you.