Recent blinding flash of the obvious: My attack thoughts say more about me than my perceived attackers' actions say about them.
Pondering that, I realize the attack thoughts I hold against my nemesis du jour tell me who I am...namely, my nemesis du jour.
Plain words, what I'm thinking Gertrude is thinking about me and, specifically, how I'd like to take old Gertrude down, is the yardstick for measuring how well I am living resist not evil, a favorite measurer of mine.
In this morning's BFO I knew my most recent Gertrude as my spiritual kin, and I felt comforted.
I suspect my journey now is not about finding friends I relate to, which is never a negative, but to be open, non-resistant, to whomever comes into my life bearing negative vibes.
In order to honestly welcome that, there can be no self-determined glad handing the person...it's all about me opening mentally to the negative vibe I feel...to let it flow out from my resistant mind.
This is all about changing my mind...and that rests entirely on my willingness to rely on God. Not to change them but to change me, to upgrade my reaction from self to Self.
An adage I hold dear comes to mind, Bless her/him, change me. I can stop the quoting it and expand the living it now.
It is exciting to me to realize again that most things we think we're starting to work on changing have already been changed. That's how we come to recognize them as in need of changing.
There's God, already got us fixed even as we walk around seeking still more spiritual growth so we can fix us. Who's cleverer than God?
Thank you.
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