Blinding flash of the obvious: My nemesis, fear of being left alone, is what draws alone to me...hug it, kiss it, love it. There is no other way to loose it, and let it go but by holding it dear.
Looking back, it is clear that each, every and all my regrets are proof that God has ever had my back. I need now and needed then every self-driven error to bring me to where I am right this very instant. If that be quivering, quaking and fearful, then I can be and I am grateful just knowing that the God of my understanding loves me just that way.When I am no longer quivering and quaking, he'll love me in my peace for he sees no difference...since there is no difference.
Fear does not change us from acceptable to unacceptable...from good to bad...from to anything. Fear is an everyday happening in one form or the other depending on how seriously we are taking ourself. It signifies nothing except when we're taking ourself way too seriously...then it signifies a need to get over ourself. Which signifies a need to go to God for God and that is all.
It's not that I think that fear is a choice...or that serenity is either. I suspect fear and serenity are just garden tools to God...for use in bringing us to perfect bloom. Gratitude is God's fertilizer.
Thank you.
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