I take comfort in the words today in Rohr's Daily Meditation: ...it takes us individually a long time to move beyond our need to be dualistic, judgmental, accusatory, fearful, blaming, egocentric, and earning—and to see as [the Lord] sees.
Ego reduction in depth, or ego deflation, is all about changing our insides not our outsides...when our insides have changed, it will show on the outside when we no longer take pride in the matter.
This fairly obvious observation came to me as I was wrestling with my resistance to the habit of an acquaintance of mine. According to me, she often co-opts my words and parades them as her own...which I sheepishly admit makes my ego Lucy less than happy.
Something akin to this occurred recently...as it happens, the same day of my acquaintance's most recent acquisition of a phrase of mine...and probably because I did not know this new person, I did not personalize it. I was able to release it as it happened. (Release it to me was thinking, thank you, you made good use of that.)
And there we are. Proof that God does indeed have my back because he connected the two for me in the moment. I realized all I needed to do to shut Lucy up (which is where my problem originates every time) was to welcome Gertrude's co-opting any word, thought or action that I considered to be mine.
My long-ago blinding flash of the obvious flashed again...nothing I say is original to me. All words have been used before, I just arrange them a tish differently...doesn't make me the owner just the deliverer.
So there's the lengthy explanation of why I take comfort in Rohr's words today...in short, it takes us individually a long time to move beyond our ego needs and to see as God wants us to see.
Thank you.
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