There are times when we will not feel the reality of God in our lives. I suppose we've all read of saints who've gone through those periods of feeling uh-oh God's missing, what to do? For sure, most of us have gone there and have friends who tell the same story.
We can't wish that feeling away, and praying that it be lifted is rather incongruous...praying to that which we're doubting exists? Please.
I choose to believe this is the fear that my reasoning mind generates whenever it wants to, and I'm powerless over that, but...whether I feel it, whether I believe it, or not...God is never powerless. God is.
Since I cannot foretell when my reasoning mind will slip out of God's embrace and meander over into ego's victory field of outrageous delights, I welcome that doubt...or, I don't dodge it, more like. I remember the before times and how I discovered my doubt to be God's and my meeting-up place...where I experienced God waiting to lift me up deeper.
God can and will if sought what God wills.
Thank you.
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