Where and how that line came to me, I have no recall, I just know (1) it is not original to me, and (2) it is true to me. It also makes it clear that it is no wonder the various references to "broken" and "error" appeal so to me.
Leonard Cohen's "Anthem" with the line, there is a crack in everything, that's how the light gets in, just sings to my heart. And of course, before ever I heard of "Anthem," I heard the story of the Navajo who, when weaving their blankets, always made an intentional error somewhere in the one they were weaving...to leave a place for God to enter in.
According to me, our ego seeks perfection and that is all. The problem being, of course, that it is our own idea of perfection that we chase, and ideas are like kaleidoscopes, ever changing. There it is, the proof that we follow ego at our own peril for our perfection excludes the crack that lets the light in.
It is that realization that leads to our breakthrough (at 40, 50, 60+) that we do not need seek "what we want to be when we grow up." That was never ours to decide.
I do not need to seek to learn how to stand silent when judged, that has been my path all along...and for way too long I prayed and cursed and cried at the injustice of it all. (The only one who can't laugh at that is my ego Lucy With the Football!)
The path we are on is the path God chose for us...he knew the rest of the story before we began it. There. That's the jump-for-joy news.
Thank you.
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