KISS IT ON THE LIPS AND WALK FREE

Never get in the way of our own crash-and-burn for there be sacred ground. -- Morning blinding flash of the obvious

Today, our own crash-and-burn is simply ego-deflation in depth...that which, from our eyebrows up anyway, we are striving for so diligently. We have walked through the flames of our most serious burnouts, learning, and living the majority of the time (that's 51%), that God has our back, he's doing the heavy lifting, and we can trust that.

We get in the way of our own crash-and-burn by trying still to do God's work for him. We analyze the problem, using everything but a slide rule and a compass, and come to the only right conclusion about what needs to be done...only to wake at 2:00 AM with a whole new slant on the problem which tells us we must start over. And we believe it. This can continue for years especially if we have had a childhood trauma...and, really, who, to their own way of thinking, hasn't?

I made a decision about death when I first heard of such a thing, and I wrestle with that decision to this very day. It is too telling that I remember where I was, who I was with, and what was said. I was two years old at the time.

And, please, do not think I have not talked to God about this...I have talked to God about it so much I can hear him yawn when I again ratchet it up.  Which brings the good news: We both laugh even as he yawns, and I say, "Yes, but...."

I wonder if our sacred ground isn't formed by our holding the source of our crash-an-burn so dear? There is our comfort, there is our justification for who we are. Without that, wouldn't we be the dolt we fear we are? With no excuse in the world, and no one to blame but our self.

Ah-ha! There it is...that is the actual truth of the matter with or without justification. There is no one to blame...or applaud...but our self. That's the basis of our note on the bathroom mirror, i.e., You are looking at your problem. To which I add, You are looking at your solution.

Embrace the problem and walk free. Not necessarily free of the problem, just free of the fret about the problem. Which is close enough to perfect for me.

Thank you.