I am watching an interesting possibility hover at the edge of my ego’s worry zone. My unconscious desire is to dodge the thought, bury it, don’t go there…paradoxically, what is required is the exact opposite. Which entails bringing the possible fret into full conscious thought, to look it in the face and imagine the worst-case scenario…that it will happen and then the various ways I can handle it when it does happen.
The process always starts with my reminding myself that God has my back, He goes before me to make the crooked places straight, and He can and will intervene in my life on my behalf. That’s my “Welcome,” my kissing it on the lips, so to speak. Takes me out of the fix, brings God in, and I get to move on.
I have learned that my ego dwells in a state of self-protection and will always (1) assume the worst so that it can be prepared to defend against and (2) go haring off on endless trails of “if this happens, then I’ll….”
Having learned that, and particularly how much harm it does to my soul peace, I’ve also learned what is required is to not let my thoughts attach to these interesting possibilities in the first place. I, by myself, am incapable of not attaching…that’s why for me the first step in the process is to turn my thoughts immediately if not sooner to God.
This does not ensure that my imagined scenario will not happen…all that is ensured is that it is no longer a worst-case scenario. I have even had some of my imagined awfuls turn out exactly as I imagined them except they benefited me…indeed, turned out to be my gold.
So that’s where I’m going in my mind today…into my worry zone to gambol with the lambs of What If, Uh-Oh, and Oh No so I can walk free in my own mind.
Thank you.
The process always starts with my reminding myself that God has my back, He goes before me to make the crooked places straight, and He can and will intervene in my life on my behalf. That’s my “Welcome,” my kissing it on the lips, so to speak. Takes me out of the fix, brings God in, and I get to move on.
I have learned that my ego dwells in a state of self-protection and will always (1) assume the worst so that it can be prepared to defend against and (2) go haring off on endless trails of “if this happens, then I’ll….”
Having learned that, and particularly how much harm it does to my soul peace, I’ve also learned what is required is to not let my thoughts attach to these interesting possibilities in the first place. I, by myself, am incapable of not attaching…that’s why for me the first step in the process is to turn my thoughts immediately if not sooner to God.
This does not ensure that my imagined scenario will not happen…all that is ensured is that it is no longer a worst-case scenario. I have even had some of my imagined awfuls turn out exactly as I imagined them except they benefited me…indeed, turned out to be my gold.
So that’s where I’m going in my mind today…into my worry zone to gambol with the lambs of What If, Uh-Oh, and Oh No so I can walk free in my own mind.
Thank you.
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